Early Monday morning, I’m driving to the office on ‘autopilot’. Still a bit tired, because I have finished my first three days of the NLP training. Rotterdam – Delft here we go again….
On the radio ‘Feel’ by Robby Williams. A few sentences hit me.
Like a brick. Right in the heart.
I sit and talk to God, And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language, I don’t understand
I just wanna feel, real love, feel the home that I live in
‘Cause I got too much life, running through my veins, going to waste
I don’t wanna die, but I ain’t keen on living either
Scare myself to death, That’s why I keep on running
Before I’ve arrived, I can see myself coming.
It makes me cry immensely. I stop for a moment in the parking lot of the gas station.
I feel angry, especially at myself. Powerless, sad and scared all at the same time.
I allow it to happen. For the first time.
Finally, I feel something.
My journey has begun.